What if you woke up tomorrow
with only what you were grateful for today?
How's that for a kick-in-the-butt reminder!?
Last winter I bought a journal where one of the exercises was to write down three things I was grateful for, every single day. I was at a really bad place at the time (for months) and I only managed to write the name of my dog and the name of my boyfriend. I simply could not think of anything else to be grateful for! I had pretty much lost the will to live. This was nearly a year ago, and things have changed since then. Actually, things haven't changed that much - I have changed!
Nowadays, the daily habit of writing down three things I'm grateful for is a breeze. I can easily name thousands of things, circumstances and people to be grateful for. And I mean truly grateful, not just saying it but being truly grateful.
More than anything, I am grateful for gratefulness. I am grateful that I AM grateful for so many things. I am grateful for being in a grateful state of mind.
Today I am even grateful for the challenges I meet, for they show me that I am a lion and I DO persist! This week has been particularly challenging for two reasons:
1. I've had my demented mother staying with me.
2. I quit smoking - while she was here. (The worst lousy timing, but I had made a promise).
I have been so ashamed. How can True Health be one of my PPN's if I kept smoking!!?? Well, I kept looking for a sign, something that would make quitting that nasty habit easier for me ... and then I saw Week 13's webinar when Mark explained what NARC stands for (Neurological Associative Reactive Conditioning), and how to use it ... and I cried and cried. Because I KNEW that if I didn't quit smoking, I might as well leave my entire DMP in the trash. Not just for a few minutes, but forever.
And there is NO way I'm trashing my DMP! I am willing to do whatever it takes to keep it out of the trash!!
Today I am grateful for bursting into tears for no apparent reason, for swearing, for throwing tantrums, and feeling miserable because I know these are just reactions to my quitting smoking.
For some people the worst trigger when they quit smoking is talking on the phone. For me it's writing because I used to chain smoke while writing.... Today I am grateful that I will not beat myself up just because I wrote the most boring blog post. It is what it is and writing gets me in a very crappy mood. Just be grateful that it's temporary. I know I am.