Friday, 27 December 2019

Master Key Experience, Week 13 - Grateful for Gratefulness


What if you woke up tomorrow 
with only what you were grateful for today?

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How's that for a kick-in-the-butt reminder!?

Last winter I bought a journal where one of the exercises was to write down three things I was grateful for, every single day. I was at a really bad place at the time (for months) and I only managed to write the name of my dog and the name of my boyfriend. I simply could not think of anything else to be grateful for! I had pretty much lost the will to live. This was nearly a year ago, and things have changed since then. Actually, things haven't changed that much - I have changed!

Nowadays, the daily habit of writing down three things I'm grateful for is a breeze. I can easily name thousands of things, circumstances and people to be grateful for. And I mean truly grateful, not just saying it but being truly grateful.

More than anything, I am grateful for gratefulness. I am grateful that I AM grateful for so many things. I am grateful for being in a grateful state of mind.

Today I am even grateful for the challenges I meet, for they show me that I am a lion and I DO persist! This week has been particularly challenging for two reasons:
1. I've had my demented mother staying with me.
2. I quit smoking - while she was here.  (The worst lousy timing, but I had made a promise).

I have been so ashamed. How can True Health be one of my PPN's if I kept smoking!!?? Well, I kept looking for a sign, something that would make quitting that nasty habit easier for me ... and then I saw Week 13's webinar when Mark explained what NARC stands for (Neurological Associative Reactive Conditioning), and how to use it ... and I cried and cried. Because I KNEW that if I didn't quit smoking, I might as well leave my entire DMP in the trash. Not just for a few minutes, but forever.

And there is NO way I'm trashing my DMP! I am willing to do whatever it takes to keep it out of the trash!!

Today I am grateful for bursting into tears for no apparent reason, for swearing, for throwing tantrums, and feeling miserable because I know these are just reactions to my quitting smoking.

For some people the worst trigger when they quit smoking is talking on the phone. For me it's writing because I used to chain smoke while writing....  Today I am grateful that I will not beat myself up just because I wrote the most boring blog post. It is what it is and writing gets me in a very crappy mood. Just be grateful that it's temporary. I know I am.


PEACE OUT!



8 comments:

  1. Love the gratitude . I know that you struggle with quitting . Think of the positive instead of the negative . I’m not giving opinions but we are supposed to dwell on how we will feel after you have quit and all the benefits instead of thinking about the negative aspects of quitting. Your health , mind , body are so much better without the cigs .

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    1. Thank you, Phil! ♥ You are absolutely right. I have written a new blog post about it today. Thank you for your support! ♥

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  2. Oh my gosh, love your post! Love your sense of humor and personality. Grateful for gratefulness. I'm stealing that one! :D What a challenging week but I have no doubts you are up for it. You always keep your promises. Thank you so much for your sincerity. I am grateful for your share and for your shares to come!!!

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    1. Thank you, Laura! ♥ Glad to hear you want to steal my 'grateful for gratefulness'! Thank you for your support! ♥

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  3. I LOVE this! Your candid authenticity is so powerful and refreshing!

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    1. Thank you, Rebecca! ♥ It means a lot to me to hear that. Thank you for your support! ♥

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